So I keep meaning to update, then just don't get around to it until it's too late. I'll definitely try to "get to it" tomorrow. I've done a LOT more than I planned while having the time off from work. The most difficult thing right now is the energy. I mean, I didn't have tons of energy before...but this is ridiculous!
Also...I *love* egg salad. I can't have the bread...but somehow just the egg and may with salt and pepper tasted SO unbelievably yummy!!
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
Friday, May 25, 2007
Another Day...
I'm just warning you all ahead of time that I'm not sure whether or not this particular blurb makes any sense. I'm pretty tired, and it's almost 3:30am. For some reason, I'm not sleeping when I should.
So I made it through another day. That's one thing I have a difficult time with when I have operations. It's all about making it through the day. This time even more because of how many changes there are. It's tough to explain the difference. I've had so many operations on my feet, for example, which have left me unable to walk afterwards. As constricting as I thought that was...this seems to be worse. The pain isn't as bad...even though I didn't have pain meds after leaving the hospital. I just can't eat what I want. I know it sounds silly, but it's so...distressing. Even when following the program as I should...I run into problems.
Today, I was thrilled that my mom was going to scramble me an egg with some cheese. I'm allowed to have an egg, and I'm allowed cheese, so I thought it would be good. About 4 tiny bites in...I could tell it was a bad idea. I made it to the bathroom before my body started in on signs of "dumping syndrome". Sweating, racing heart, nausea, all of it. I ended up dry heaving for about 5 minutes as my body tried to get rid of the few bites I had (nothing ever came up), then I ended up forgoing breakfast and just trying to lay back and go back to sleep. I slept through the morning, feeling pretty sick all day, then lunchtime rolled around. I knew I *needed* to eat (especially after not having breakfast), but nothing sounded good. I ended up having just yogurt for lunch and for dinner. Now I'm afraid of trying anything new. Just...not fun at all.
I've been really good at getting in 3 walks every day, each time going a little further than the time before. Today I didn't do so well. I managed to take a shower, and I went to my grandpa's (which requires walking) but I didn't do more than that. Hopefully I'll get better.
I did find out tonight, though, that my best friend from Pittsburgh is going to come out from Sunday until Friday :-) That should be fun! She's already been warned that I won't be able to do much, and is ok with that, luckily.
Back to the whole "as constricting as I thought that was...this seems to be worse" thought, I had a rough time yesterday. One of the other things they told us ahead of time about this surgery is that us girls would run into emotional issues similar to "the baby blues." Now, I've had operations before...and I've gotten all sad with them before...but yesterday was bad. I'll spare you all the details, but it's gotten better today (but today came the sickness, heh). With any luck...I'll be able to make it through tomorrow without the sickness OR pain, and my exhaustion will be mild. We can all hope.
So I made it through another day. That's one thing I have a difficult time with when I have operations. It's all about making it through the day. This time even more because of how many changes there are. It's tough to explain the difference. I've had so many operations on my feet, for example, which have left me unable to walk afterwards. As constricting as I thought that was...this seems to be worse. The pain isn't as bad...even though I didn't have pain meds after leaving the hospital. I just can't eat what I want. I know it sounds silly, but it's so...distressing. Even when following the program as I should...I run into problems.
Today, I was thrilled that my mom was going to scramble me an egg with some cheese. I'm allowed to have an egg, and I'm allowed cheese, so I thought it would be good. About 4 tiny bites in...I could tell it was a bad idea. I made it to the bathroom before my body started in on signs of "dumping syndrome". Sweating, racing heart, nausea, all of it. I ended up dry heaving for about 5 minutes as my body tried to get rid of the few bites I had (nothing ever came up), then I ended up forgoing breakfast and just trying to lay back and go back to sleep. I slept through the morning, feeling pretty sick all day, then lunchtime rolled around. I knew I *needed* to eat (especially after not having breakfast), but nothing sounded good. I ended up having just yogurt for lunch and for dinner. Now I'm afraid of trying anything new. Just...not fun at all.
I've been really good at getting in 3 walks every day, each time going a little further than the time before. Today I didn't do so well. I managed to take a shower, and I went to my grandpa's (which requires walking) but I didn't do more than that. Hopefully I'll get better.
I did find out tonight, though, that my best friend from Pittsburgh is going to come out from Sunday until Friday :-) That should be fun! She's already been warned that I won't be able to do much, and is ok with that, luckily.
Back to the whole "as constricting as I thought that was...this seems to be worse" thought, I had a rough time yesterday. One of the other things they told us ahead of time about this surgery is that us girls would run into emotional issues similar to "the baby blues." Now, I've had operations before...and I've gotten all sad with them before...but yesterday was bad. I'll spare you all the details, but it's gotten better today (but today came the sickness, heh). With any luck...I'll be able to make it through tomorrow without the sickness OR pain, and my exhaustion will be mild. We can all hope.
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
Yes, I made it home...
I'm sorry I haven't posted since getting home. I've been here...I've even been online, but those who have chatted with me can attest that I'm a woman of very few words these days. It's amazing how much energy it takes to type! I've decided to hurry and throw something together, though.
I came home on Saturday, after the dr. finally decided that it was ok. We thought I would come home on Friday...then I had problems with nausea (and the lovely dry heaves that went along with it). Saturday afternoon I got to my parents' house and parked myself on the couch. That's pretty much where I've been since.
I'm still "eating" 2oz of food 3 times a day. The first couple of days of broth and jello weren't bad, as I didn't want anything. My mind is coming back, and my new obsession with food is driving me crazy. I'll watch a movie...and I'll focus on the food. I was reading my book last night, and they mentioned an egg salad sandwich...and suddenly that's *all* I wanted (luckily I can start having an egg for meals on Wednesday...lol). This is going to be a long, grueling process. I knew it would be. I didn't think about the fact that I wouldn't be able to have pain killers once I left the hospital. Pretty much the only pain killers I can tolerate is lortab...but it makes me sick if I don't eat enough with it (2 oz. of broth and/or jello? Pretty sure not gonna cut it). So...I've just been dealing with it. I'm also still on oxygen, as my sats still weren't high enough without it at the hospital. Nose cannulas SUCK for the record...lol. I've been doing well with taking 3 short walks a day, even though I'm beyond exhausted. Today was especially difficult, as I managed to shower (which took 20 minutes) and I actually went downstairs before that. It's amazing how exhausted I get over the silliest little things.
Even with all that? I'm still up...typing away. I promised myself I would read more tonight, too. We'll see how far I get, hehe. I need to work on getting my water in between meals, I think that is adding to the exhaustion. We'll see what I can do.
Today, I was able to add in yogurt, string cheese, cottage cheese, and strained soups (I had tomato soup for dinner!). It was a nice change to the jello & broth. Yogurt for breakfast, string cheese for lunch, and 2 oz of tomato soup for dinner. It was SO nice!! Wednesday a LOT of things are added back in...so I can't wait!!
Ok, enough of my update. Just wanted to let y'all know that I was, in fact, home (though most of you know). I also wanted to let you know that I've just been too exhausted to type. With any luck, that'll pick up!!
Off to read (I *hope* I can pull myself away after 1 chapter)...
I came home on Saturday, after the dr. finally decided that it was ok. We thought I would come home on Friday...then I had problems with nausea (and the lovely dry heaves that went along with it). Saturday afternoon I got to my parents' house and parked myself on the couch. That's pretty much where I've been since.
I'm still "eating" 2oz of food 3 times a day. The first couple of days of broth and jello weren't bad, as I didn't want anything. My mind is coming back, and my new obsession with food is driving me crazy. I'll watch a movie...and I'll focus on the food. I was reading my book last night, and they mentioned an egg salad sandwich...and suddenly that's *all* I wanted (luckily I can start having an egg for meals on Wednesday...lol). This is going to be a long, grueling process. I knew it would be. I didn't think about the fact that I wouldn't be able to have pain killers once I left the hospital. Pretty much the only pain killers I can tolerate is lortab...but it makes me sick if I don't eat enough with it (2 oz. of broth and/or jello? Pretty sure not gonna cut it). So...I've just been dealing with it. I'm also still on oxygen, as my sats still weren't high enough without it at the hospital. Nose cannulas SUCK for the record...lol. I've been doing well with taking 3 short walks a day, even though I'm beyond exhausted. Today was especially difficult, as I managed to shower (which took 20 minutes) and I actually went downstairs before that. It's amazing how exhausted I get over the silliest little things.
Even with all that? I'm still up...typing away. I promised myself I would read more tonight, too. We'll see how far I get, hehe. I need to work on getting my water in between meals, I think that is adding to the exhaustion. We'll see what I can do.
Today, I was able to add in yogurt, string cheese, cottage cheese, and strained soups (I had tomato soup for dinner!). It was a nice change to the jello & broth. Yogurt for breakfast, string cheese for lunch, and 2 oz of tomato soup for dinner. It was SO nice!! Wednesday a LOT of things are added back in...so I can't wait!!
Ok, enough of my update. Just wanted to let y'all know that I was, in fact, home (though most of you know). I also wanted to let you know that I've just been too exhausted to type. With any luck, that'll pick up!!
Off to read (I *hope* I can pull myself away after 1 chapter)...
Thursday, May 17, 2007
Today is the day....
It's so odd to me that here it is....surgery day...10:00am....and I'm still sitting at home. For every operation I've ever had (7 before this one), I've had to be there early in the morning. Today...I got to sleep in, put together the last few eBay orders to ship out, pack up the stuff to take to my mom's...and it's weird. The only thing I really don't like is that I'm really really thirsty. That doesn't change after surgery this time, though, as I can't even have water or ice chips right away. Everything is going to be different after today. It'll just be interesting to see how!
I'll update when I get back from the hospital :-) (or if I can get away with it...from my phone while I'm still in the hospital...lol).
Oh! and for those who don't know...my surgery? I'm getting gastric bypass :-) So this beyond huge girl that you've known in the past may not be who you see next time you see me!!
I'll update when I get back from the hospital :-) (or if I can get away with it...from my phone while I'm still in the hospital...lol).
Oh! and for those who don't know...my surgery? I'm getting gastric bypass :-) So this beyond huge girl that you've known in the past may not be who you see next time you see me!!
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
2 days left....
I'm really going to try to post on here more often! I need to try to update my posts here whenever I make one on my lj account, as there are different people on both. Over the next couple of weeks, I'll have nothing but time anyway, hehe.
It feels....odd. This is the first time since I accepted my current position that I have taken a significant amount of time off. I tied up all the loose ends today, and now I'm free. It's SUCH an odd feeling!! To know that *no one* is relying on my being there tomorrow. I don't have any messes I have to clean up. I don't have to review anyone's business and try to make it better. I don't have to even think about any of it until June 11. This just feels.....strange to me. I've become SO attached to some of my accounts. It's a strange thought that they'll be ok without my being there (in spite of what some of them think ;-) ). I've been so focused on surgery....that I never thought about how *this* would feel. I feel...strangely sad (yet, of course, VERY happy at the same time!).
Luckily, I have a LOT of projects to work on while I'm down. I need to work on Marjorie & Glen's engagements that I took a month ago, still. I have been SO busy that I haven't had the chance to work on them at all. I also have to start designing their wedding invitations. Now if only I knew what they wanted! hehe. I also have to work on Jen's family pictures that I took, as well as the pictures of Mitsy's boys. I LOVE that I'm going to have time to work on this stuff! I realize I'll also be sleeping a LOT, though.
Tomorrow, I go to the hospital for my final appointment and all of my tests and classes. Then, Thursday is the big day!! I can't wait to see what's going to happen in these next few months. For the first time in a VERY long time...I feel something that slightly resembles hope :-)
It feels....odd. This is the first time since I accepted my current position that I have taken a significant amount of time off. I tied up all the loose ends today, and now I'm free. It's SUCH an odd feeling!! To know that *no one* is relying on my being there tomorrow. I don't have any messes I have to clean up. I don't have to review anyone's business and try to make it better. I don't have to even think about any of it until June 11. This just feels.....strange to me. I've become SO attached to some of my accounts. It's a strange thought that they'll be ok without my being there (in spite of what some of them think ;-) ). I've been so focused on surgery....that I never thought about how *this* would feel. I feel...strangely sad (yet, of course, VERY happy at the same time!).
Luckily, I have a LOT of projects to work on while I'm down. I need to work on Marjorie & Glen's engagements that I took a month ago, still. I have been SO busy that I haven't had the chance to work on them at all. I also have to start designing their wedding invitations. Now if only I knew what they wanted! hehe. I also have to work on Jen's family pictures that I took, as well as the pictures of Mitsy's boys. I LOVE that I'm going to have time to work on this stuff! I realize I'll also be sleeping a LOT, though.
Tomorrow, I go to the hospital for my final appointment and all of my tests and classes. Then, Thursday is the big day!! I can't wait to see what's going to happen in these next few months. For the first time in a VERY long time...I feel something that slightly resembles hope :-)
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